Friday, December 24, 2010

Happy Holidays, signing off for 2 days

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

If you had told me on December 24th, 2009 that in a year I would get up on Christmas Eve and run 3.2 miles in 30 minutes to start  the day I would have said you were crazy.  But that's exactly what I did. I want to take moment to savor where I'm at from a year ago.

  • Run an average of 14-15 miles a week
  • Can do 30+ pushups and 20+ situps without stopping
  • Down to around 180 lbs. (give or take a couple of holiday pounds)
That's pretty damn good, and real progress, and to be honest if that's where I am a year from now I won't be disappointed.  Although I would like to improve all of those numbers at least some over the next year. But the above is certainly nothing to sneer at, and something to be very satisfied with and thankful that I had the determination, focus, and support of my loved ones to get there.

Busy day of projects and tasks around the house today, in preparation for tonight and tomorrow. Glad to have pretty much all shopping done so I don't have to really leave the house (except for a quick walk). 

As my gift to my family (particularly Kim) I am going into Internet silence for 2 days: no Twitter, Facebook, Tumblr until the 26th. It's also a test of my own ability to do that, because that wouldn't be a bad thing. So, until then, have a wonderful couple of days, enjoy the Holidays, be Thankful for all that you have, focus on those you love, both within reach and out of reach, and above all: 

Have fun! It's a holiday! Enjoy yourselves!

 The world will still be there Sunday morning.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

The Hoildays are starting to take their toll on the kids

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

There is a downside to getting the Christmas Tree up, and getting all of those presents wrapped and other things. It means that the routine of school Monday through Friday, regular bed times, etc. have all flown out the window. In the past couple of days Daniel and now Emily are definitely getting more touchy.

Daniel has needed some extra TLC at bed times, regressing as far as needing someone to carry him to bed.  He has also been a little more touchy when we tell him he can't do soemthing, or he has to eat something or whatever. And he has become attached to some stuffed animals, carrying themaround, or at least wanting them at bed time. All of this is pretty unusual behavior for him.

Emily has also been a little more touchy. Sunday, when Kim told her she was going shopping, and she was supposed to saty with me, and Em just broke down. Then on Monday the cousins were over, and when it was time for them to leave, there was another round of hysterics. And apparently today she had a breakdown at Dad's, with no prompting.

James at least has handled it all fine, one of the perks of getting older. We just have to suck it up, take a little more time with them, and be a little more patient. 

Monday, December 20, 2010

Batteries recharged by a day of full on TV slothfullness

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

Took the most advantage I could of lightly scheduled weekend, doing as little as I could get away with. Had time for nice visit with my family. One run went well, second was overtaken by the weekend theme of laziness. Clearing the decks in final countdown as Holiday plans come into focus.

Family

I didn't plan on this, but with Kim having to work on Sunday so she could have Christmas day off Sunday was more relaxed than normal.  SHe is my big motivator, it never feels right to just sit around and do nothing when she is around, at least in the mornings.  Then she went off Christmas shopping after work, which meant I had a day with nothing really planned, extra kids, and the chance to watch my 2 favorite NFL teams lose (as the Rams were actually televised, in a rare occurence).  So I took advantage and spent all day SUnday just lazing on the couch, watching a movie, then football, then various other shows.  It wasn't like I didn't have things to do, I just wasn't motivated.

Saturday was focused on picking up prior to a family visit, and then some major Christmas present wrapping.  Then a little relaxed shopping, dinner out, and more Christmas light looking.  The biggest issue over the weekend was getting the kids to bed at a reasonable time, Daniel especially fought it.  Next week could be interesting with my being home and them having chances to really stay up late, since I won't be having to get them up early or anything like that.

Training

My Saturday run went quite well, handled the new, rougher route, and snow on the sidewalk with little problem.  I might have gone a little faster without the snow, but it was a good run regardless. Sunday was dealt a blow by the above laziness, I did finally get out for a run in the early afternoon but did not complete my scheduled run, cutting it short.  The key as always when these things occur is to not let 1 bad workout get me down, just pick back up the next day, which I did this morning, really pushing it with my push ups.

My holiday eating is definitely starting to add up, but since the focus is on changing my eating habits I am trying not to let that get me down either. It's all about the habits, so right now I am maintaining the exercise habits, and changing the eating habits, so when that kicks in, and the holiday indulgences go away I can return to healthier and lighter eating.  I mean the thing is, when I am running 5 miles, and doing 100 push ups and sit ups it is not as crucial that my weight is going down.  I know it will go down again, once my other habits get established.

Pictures

Uploaded a bunch more pictures on Picasa last week and the weekend. The interesting thing about Picasa is it has a facial recognition feature. So while I was working this I took the time to look at pictures of myself, and it is kind of astounding how much I have changed over the last year. 

It was also fun to compile the total of all our Chrsitmas pictures and put them on our digital picture frame for the holidays.  That has been fun to watch the kids, and how much they have changed over the years.  And also how much we have changed things like the decor of our house. 

Football

Well my teams did not fare any better having me watch them. It was fun to actually watch the Rams, instead of just following the scores at the bottom of the screen. Although it would have been far more fun had they actually played better.  I have accepted the fact that for whatever reason the Broncos just aren't very good right now. Getting Tebow in the game was fun, and he did provide a spark, but it is clear that at least from a play calling perspective he is limited in what they can do right now. But in the long run a day like yesterday was really my last gasp for this season, no more dedicating an entire day to watching the games.

Friday, December 17, 2010

Today's lesson: not an easy one

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

From the Tao:

Bearing and Nurturing
Creating but not owning
Giving without demanding
This is harmony

Not nearly as easy as it sounds.  When your life is as blessed as mine, with so many giving people in it. You would think that it would be easy to learn to give without demanding, and yet I find myself focusing not on what I am giving these holidays but what will I get? Admitting this shows that I am not perfect.

What I am is trying real hard to be better at these things. And my life is certainly full of splendid examples of people who give and give and give, with little or no expectation of anything in return. So, while I may not have much to give at this time, either because those who give to me and my family ask and want nothing in return, or need what I cannot provide. I will strive to provide what I can to those I can give to.

That means giving to my children: a loving home, comfort when they need it, education and wisdom, and examples of the way to live your life.

Giving to my wife: a loving home, support in all of her endeavors, comfort and support when she needs it, inspiration.

Giving to my extended family: support in their endeavors, thanks for all they give me, help when they call for it.

Giving to my friends: inspiration and support hopefully in their daily lives.

Those are all things I give, and my lesson is to teach myself to lessen my demands, conscious and unwitting.


Thursday, December 16, 2010

Interesting conundrum: how to focus on the here and now, but not lose touch with the future

Dear James, Daniel and Emily

In all of this talk on developing better Focus, and learning to better appreciate what I am doing I have come across this problem, a problem best summed up in this quote:

~ Nobody seems more obsessed by diet than our anti-materialistic, otherworldly, New Age spiritual types. But if the material world is merely illusion, an honest guru should be as content with Budweiser and bratwurst as with raw carrot juice, tofu and seaweed slime ~

Edward Abbey


 
For most of my life, up until a couple of years ago the above quote represented an important point to me.  If you really believed in an after life, and wanted to focus on the here and now, who cared if you had that double cheeseburger and fries?  If you really and truly lived only in the present then the goal should be to enjoy that present, right?

Of course that sort of philosophy leads to the following:
Eat, Drink and be Merry;
End up Fat and Drunk
The lesson being to be focused on the present, in order to enjoy it, and savor it, but be mindful of the future, there are lessons to be learned, and consequences to be avoided if possible.

The opposite problem is to be too mindful of the past and lessons learned there. This coming from someone who treasures his past, whose greatest joy from Facebook comes from reuniting with old friends and acquaintances.  But you can get obsessed by that, and live in the past, and let past lessons paralyze you in the present.

In this I prefer to try to think like a child.  Kids really don't think much about the past, it's just a kind of hazy thing, because it is either very close, or because their sense of time is different it really doesn't mean anything to them.  You never hear a child talk about how great they were at something when they were younger.  You never hear kids sit around and talk about their 'glory days'.

All of the above can be summed up:

Learn from the past, Focus on the present, Consider the future

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Reminding myself to pause and enjoy, instead of exhaustively focusing on the negative

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

Just had a wonderful lunch out.  For the first time I put my new habit of not reading or watching TV or otherwise occupying my attention while eating to the test of eating out alone.  And I have to say that not only did I feel the effect of getting fuller, but I can honestly say I enjoyed the meal more.

And that is the key, the essence of what my new focus has become (unspoken, and more unconscious before now).  It's not like I live what I would call a hectic life.  My job and my wife's job is not especially stressful, the work pretty much ends as soon as I leave the office.  Other than the seasonal sports the kids do not demand an excessive amount of time any more.  So to a certain extent we do get a decent amount of free time.

But I have a tendency to focus on things well beyond my control, and allow that focus to zero in on the negative.  I become embroiled in following politics, and arguing about it. Or let sports overtake my life, again something well beyond my control.  And this wears me out emotionally and intellectually.

So, taking the time to focus on my food today at lunch helped remind me to focus on the here and now, to enjoy what I am doing. And this also helps me in my eating choices, because many of the fast food choices out there really don't taste that great, but if you are not really paying attention, and instead are focused on reading, it becomes easier to just eat crap. But when you are actually thinking about your food you realize what you are eating just isn't that good and lose your appetite. 

The same can be said about pretty much every other aspect of my life. I just need to retrain myself to take the time and focus on what I am doing, not on what I am not involved in, or doing, or is beyond my control.  Because letting my energy focus on those things instead of what I am doing not only keep me from enjoying what I am doing, and making what I am doing worse, it also uses up my energy.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Habits, it's all in the habits

Dear James, Daniel and Emily.

Talking with some folks at the company luncheon today about exercising, losing weight etc. and the one thing that became clear is it's all about habits.  I didn't start losing wieght by running 5K's and eating 1000 calories a day.  I changed my habits, and unconsciously did so a little at a time, until those habits that could be expanded were possible.  And that's the essentials of how I changed my lifestyle.

I started off just eating less, and walking, at first less than a mile a day. From those humble beginnings I am where I am today: running 3-5 miles 4 days a week, and rarely exceeding 2000 calories net per day.  And that is how I dropped 50 pounds, brought my triglycerides from pre-diabetes levels to very healthy, and produced a net cholesterol number of 151.

Kim asked me how is she supposed to find the time to do that, I told her to just start, start with the 10 minutes a day, or even every other day. It's like saving money, if you told someone to save 1,000 or more dollars a year they would ask how? But if instead you said put 5-10$ a week into savings they wouldn't miss it.

Simple, Zen like phrasing:

Start small, stay simple, let habit take care of the rest.

Monday, December 13, 2010

I rock my runs, and other weekend thoughts

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

My weekend runs went very well, as did the rest of the weekend. Had a good time bowling, got the tree up and decorated, and had a good party.  Embarrassed to be a Broncos fan today, more so than at any other time.  Christmas is coming together, and approaching fast.

Training

Saturday I was scheduled for a long run, and decided to vary my route a little.  I was going quite well, and ended up hitting 5 miles, just as I was coming to the end of the run, so averaged 10 minute miles.  So that was very good, but I felt it a little the rest of the day. My Achilles just would not loosen up. So I was a little concerned Sunday, wasn't sure how much I would run, especially since it was mostly sprint intervals. I vowed to stop if I felt my leg show any pain.  Not only did the pain not appear, but I ended up cruising through the workout, achieving a record ~25 minute 5K! And my leg actually felt good the rest of the day, so maybe the run helped loosen it up.  I am quite pleased with this training phase so far.

Family

Had a good time at the birthday party on Saturday, the kids were actually very good.  Happy Birthday again to Megan by the way.  We ripped through the cleaning, got the house ready for the party.  Then went out and had a nice dinner and then tour of the West side looking at Christmas decorations. 

Sunday was the annual Christmas cookie and treat making party.  Which went very well, the kids had a good time, lots of good food was made (and sampled, good to have those runs under my belt).  These events are always fun.  And now we also have firmed up our Christmas and Christmas eve plans as well.

Emily is having a hard time at school lately, not so much problems with school work, but health wise.  She had to picked up early Thursday and Friday.  She doesn't really have any other symptoms other than a runny nose, which is pretty much a constant.  But the teachers said the color was green, and therefore they were concerned for her health, other kids, and since she doesn't do a great job of wiping her nose yet it does kind of get everywhere.  She was fine over the weekend, so I can only hope that the worst of it is past.

Football

I expected the Rams to lose a road game to the defending Super Bowl champions.  I would have liked it to be more competitive, but since the Seahawks lost the Rams are still in control of their own destiny.

I not only did not expect the Broncos to lose, I certainly did not expect an embarrassing loss like that. I was really pretty upset, the team just showed no heart, when you are outscored by the opposing teams kicker, it's just a sad state of affairs. I have stood by the Broncos through some bad times and losses (Super Bowls for example). But this season has been s new standard of low. Just horrendous, the entire franchise should hang it's head and go back to the drawing board after this, nothing is sacred, every facet of the team has pretty much failed.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Beginning the rapid ramp up to Xmas and holidays

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

Busy weekend ahead: family birthday party, cleaning house, setting up Christmas tree, and then holiday cookie and treat making party on Sunday.  It is definitely getting close to that time of year.  First full week of new exercise schedule closes today successfully.  No time for hobbies this weekend, sigh.  Mostly successful with new habits for the week.

Family

This weekend will be busy.  We have a family birthday party tomorrow, that I will be taking the kids to, since Kim will be working. After that it will be a family night of Christmas decorating and probably a movie.

Sunday we are having what is a tradition for Kim's family.  Every year we all gather together and let the kids go to town in making all kinds of Christmas cookies and treats and decorating them.  It's usually fun, but chaotic. 

The 2 events above (not the birthday party) are the signal that it is definitely holiday time.  Fortunately this year Kim has done 90% of the shopping so we at least have that out of the way.

Training

Week 1 of the new running Phase is complete, along with the first consistent week of every other day doing the push ups & sit ups.  Which means this was the first week of completely new training habit: get up every day, including the weekend, and do something.  And it went well, I feel some soreness and will look forward to a 2 day break from the lifting.  This weekend I will be getting a little more serious with a longer run on Saturday morning, but otherwise this is the new process.  And I like it, I like the way I feel after getting up early and doing some form of exercise every day. My only real obstacle has been that for some reason it is harder to do sit ups in the mornings, but by doing this new schedule that will come around.

Hobbies

With all of the cleaning, parties and entertaining there will be no time or room for hobbies this weekend. But I plan to make up for that with James come the week after Christmas as I have that entire week off and will have loads of time around the house to do that sort of thing.

Habit

The first week of not reading or watching TV while eating has gone well so far.  The only real problem is snacking at my desk at work.  I really have no choice there, I don't really have the option of getting up and going somewhere else for the snacks.  But that will be a habit for another month.  For now I am focused on this one habit, and specifically on meals.  I do really notice a difference as far as feeling fuller when my mind is actually focused on eating, instead of distracted by reading or watching TV, so it appears that there really might be something to this.  Of course we are talking about a nearly 40 year habit to break, so week 1 is only a small start, but as the philosopher says: 'a journey of a thousand miles begins with 1 step'. 

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Teaching number 1 son: It's all about process

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

James is in third grade.  I remember third grade, I hated third grade.  I went from the freedom of a bizarre hippy free school with young hip teachers, to the rigors of a normal public school with an old, very rigid teacher.  Most of all I hated the fact that while I was able to read at a much higher level than most of my class mates I was stuck in the basics along with everyone else, repeating the same boring lessons over and over.  You might expect me to now say thanks for that repetition, that I learned a valuable lesson.  That would be incorrect, I am still bitter about all that and felt that I could have developed more as a writer with a different process.  But that last word is the key: process.

This year James has been handed some true writing assignments for home work.  And while the boy will blaze through his math homework like a house on fire (save for the tendency to miss/skip parts of the instructions), writing is a different problem.  We have tried different tacks.  Kim is not a writer, and just isn't comfortable helping him with it, so it falls to me to handle most of these assignments (which I don't mind, she'll get hers when his math advances to a certain level). 

This week I tried to get him to break down the assignment (a book report) into different components and tackle each one on separate days.  That didn't work very well, because I didn't do a very good job of explaining the components to him so he really knew what he had to do each day.  So last night we had to essentially do the whole thing in 1 night, not exactly easy for either of us.  After he was done I sat down and wrote out the steps, and what they meant, and had him read that and sign it, so he knows what I mean when I tell him he has to perform step 1 on Sunday.  Here are the steps:

  1. Building Blocks
    • Read a book if it is a book report
    • Take Notes about the article, book, or idea
    • Come up with the introductory sentence
    • Come up with wrap up sentence
  2. Framing the House
    • Take each note and make it into a sentence
    • Organize the sentences into a coherent order
    • Write the rough draft
    • Read the draft out loud at least once
  3. Finishing touches
    • Check spelling in rough draft
    • Make certain title and other assignment requirements are written
    • Write the final draft
    • Review final draft: spelling, read out loud.
Does that work for everything? For everything he will ever write? no. And there are lots of implied pieces in some of the steps that could have been spelled out as well, but I wanted to stick to the essentials.  The thing is James is a very logical kid, he really enjoys these computer games that are all about starting small, acquiring pieces, and using those pieces to make himself bigger and stronger.  So I figured that this was the best approach, show him that writing these reports used the same idea of taking a number of small pieces and gradually stringing them together.  How this works going forward I can't say for sure, but I hope that this will at least make it easier on us parents as far as setting goals and tasks each night for home work to avoid nights like last night.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Shameless gift promotion time

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

First of all, I don't need anything for the holidays, I really have all I need with my wonderful family and life.  But for those of you out there who feel the deep seated desire to buy me something this link (leading to other links) is a good place to start.  Particularly the apparel, any of the linekd t-shirts would be fun to have.

Links for a Geeky Xmas list

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Fighting the unending fight, with a new strategy

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

Good return to solid running this morning, felt good, but did lose energy at the end, that week off definitely took a bigger toll than I would have thought.  Yesterday was successful in first day of eat first, read later, we'll see how it goes the rest of the week.  Today's topic: attempting to regain focus again.

Focus

As always the eternal battle for me is Focus, how to get it, and how to keep it.  Well in reading more from the Zen Habits books I have decided to employ some new strategies. 

The first thing is to develop some new habits, but also recognize that these habits cannot be learned all at once.  So for now my first habit to develop is to limit my browsing time, both at work, and mobile with the phone. 

My initial goal is to limit myself to checking in on my various social networks no more than once an hour, ideally giving myself greater time between check ins.  It's not easy, but it's something I feel I need to do. 

Once I can tame that monster the next step would be to tackle the general browsing: Sports, news, politics etc.  I did make one change on that yesterday, moving the various blogs I visit regularly to Google Reader so I can limit myself to 1 site visit instead of several.  The biggest thing is to fight the urge to keep multiple browser tabs open.  Which is counter intuitive to what I can do, but let's be honest, having multiple tabs open to Facebook, Twitter, Gmail, Tumblr etc is not multi-tasking, it's overkill, and unnecessary for what I want out of life in general.

Monday, December 6, 2010

New Era of productivity (maybe) combines with Phase 2 of training

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

Very productive weekend, got lots done around the house.  Had time for some fun, a couple of movie nights and a trip to library.  But also started Phase 2 of the training program in earnest.  Only briefly noted that there was football on TV. 

Projects

Sunday morning dawned bright and clear.  After I returned home from a brisk run I found a nice breakfast already made by my wonderful wife.  Only to find that there was an ulterior motive: she had projects to do and wanted an early start.  After that nice breakfast it was time to buckle down.  The goal: paint the laundry room and repaint the stairwell.  We had been planning on the laundry room for quite a while, and Kim decided that the day had come.  Plus we had picked up some new light fixtures for the stairwell and I had to move the banister so it made sense to paint it again at the same time.

So by the end of the day the stairwell was done except for the banister.  And the laundry room was painted, although Kim might do some more decorative painting.  And that felt good to get all of that done, the laundry room was the last room in the house that we have not painted, so we have finally completed that.

Training

First 2 runs of the next phase were handled well.  It's a different type of training, more geared to calorie burn, so the pace of the runs will be harder.  And managed the push ups & sit ups Friday and today, so that is continuing to progress (although the push ups were tough today after spending several hours painting yesterday).

I am going to try something new with my eating.  I came across this in one of the Zen Habits books I am reading, and it makes sense, although will be a real big change.  I am resolved to stop reading/watching TV while eating.  This is an effort to break a roughly 40 year habit, so it won't be easy.  But I have seen over and over that eating while watching TV was bad, and occasionally note that reading is almost as bad.  And in an effort to improve my eating habits this is my next focus. 

Family

Aside from spending Sunday on painting it was a good weekend.  Had a couple of family movie nights.  The kids had plenty of chances for playing and relaxing.  I didn't do any games with James, which upset him some, but I explained that I couldn't play games with him every weekend, he needs to work on playing with his brother or finding things on his own.

Football

Well the Rams are on a roll, for now.  Unfortunately the Broncos are on the opposite roll.  Sigh, well I guess it would be too hard for me to focus if both teams played well at the same time. 

I am guardedly optimistic about the CU Buffs new coaching choices.  I think it will help as far as alumni expectations, and ideally recruiting to have a couple of former All America's and alumni leading the staff.  But obviously, having been burned by the Hawkins era, I am restrained in any optimism until the wins tart showing up.

Friday, December 3, 2010

Ending the week(s) of rest and beginning phase 2, plus return to #Bloodbowl

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

Between the holiday week, ending one training cycle, beginning 2 new challenges, and being sick this week I have grown somewhat lax, but that ends now.  This weekend I plan to teach James another game: Bloodbowl.  Otherwise it is a slow weekend, with no plans as we take a breath before the Holiday weekends kick in.  And this week marks the beginning of the end of football as we know it for this season.

Training

So, between the Holiday weekend, and then getting sick, I have lost a little of my training momentum.  But I have mapped out a new phase in my running training, which starts Saturday.  This phase is less about building up, and more about just running, burning calories etc.  Plus next week I will be able to really start my new training/workout schedule: Run 4 days a week, load bearing 3 days a week. 

And this couldn't come a minute too soon as I am noticing a very slight uptick in weight.  And while some of that may be due to the push ups, since I know muscle weighs more.  I think it is more likely due to the unplanned prolonged downturn.  Which is coming to an end now.

Miniatures

This weekend I decided that it is time to teach James a new game: Bloodbowl .  This is a fun little game, incorporating a mix of American football, Rugby, and soccer, with fantasy gore and violence.  It's at once simpler than Warzone, but also more sophisticated in certain ways.  Because there are fewer options and less likelihood of winning on pure luck you do have to be more careful with what your figure do.  I like the game, and it has the added appeal of my only having to paint a few more figures to complete what I have.  We'll see how it goes, and I will take some pictures as always and upload them.

Family

No real plans this weekend.  Have to keep things low key for budget reasons as much as any.  I'll probably drag the kids to the library on Saturday for a short trip out, and that's really the sum of my ambitions beyond the game plans above.  Probably do some house cleaning, maybe tackle a few projects around the house.

Football

Well College football is virtually over now, just a couple of league championship games, then bowl season and the farce of the BCS.  CU and Ole Miss are done though.

The Broncos are down to playing out the string, although not mathematically eliminated there is virtually no chance of their winning out to get into the playoffs.  Which is really for the best I think, They need a real bad year to realize how bad things have gotten.  Sometimes the worst thing that can happen to a bad team is to get lucky a few times, and string together enough victories to seem competitive.  Sometimes you need to have a really bad season to realize how bad things are, force out the dead wood.

Which is what the Rams were forced to do over the last couple of years.  And they are seeing the fruits of that this season, as that core of improved players is really starting to play well this year.  Which is why they are on the upswing, with a chance of actually making the playoffs the year after winning only 1 game.  They hit rock bottom and are reaping the rewards of that, which I think the Broncos need to do on some level. 

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Back to work after holiday, sickness, etc.

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

Relaxing holiday weekend, capped by fun Broncos - Rams game.  Spent much of the relaxed time giving TLC to sick Emily, likely leading to my catching same cold.  Put running on hold, but now have reorganized training plan.  Kind of relaxed due to mostly ignoring politics for a couple of days. Played a game of Warzone, and did loads of painting over the weekend.  Just a good number of days.

Training

Caught cold from Emily, with it sneaking up on me on Sunday.  So I rescheduled my training schedule, putting all running on hold until the weekend.  I figured it was more important to be healthy and there was a real chance that I might make things worse by pushing myself on the runs.  But I did resume my push ups, and sit ups yesterday.

After thinking it through I decided to revise my schedule again.  4 days a week running, 3 days a week doing push ups, sit ups (maybe eventually pull ups too).  I figure that is the optimal way to approach my fitness schedule as I transition from the one plan to another. 

Actually had someone call me an athlete the other day,  Weird, I have never thought of myself that way, but when someone who knew me very well at one time, but still is in touch and follows the blog makes the comment I guess I can take the label without a grain of salt, no matter how weird it feels.

Family

Certainly the most relaxed Thanksgiving break in several years.  Which was nice for a change.  Nice not to host, or stress about running all over town.  Emily being sick added some incentive to our staying home as much as possible and really just taking it easy.  Of course all that time with the sick child resulted in my catching the same cold, which put me out of work on Monday.  And yesterday I was out helping Mom, so there is some catching up to do today.  But at least I can feel that I got the cold nipped in the bud.

Miniatures

Played 1 game, I lost horribly, just a terrible combination of bad scenario, army design, and tremendous dice rolling by James.  But that comes with the territory, and actually provides incentive for James to play more if he wins.  So I'll take it for that, not the first time I lost a game of Warzone and won't be the last.

Got in lots of painting time as well.  Even got James and Daniel painting some.  James isn't bad if I can get him to slow down and take his time. Daniel is 5, which means he really needs supervision and control when attempting to paint.  But they both had fun doing it. 

Football

The game was great fun.  Thanks again to Bill & Nancy for the chance to go, and brave the cold and occasional snow flurry.  I couldn't really lose as my 2 favorite teams played, so I was just hoping for a good game.  And it turned out that way overall.  At first the Broncos got off to another good start.  But the Rams fought back, and eventually took a big lead.  At which point it seemed like that was all over, but the Broncos staged a furious comeback attempt, making it a great 4th quarter.  The beauty was that with the Rams win they made it to first place in their division, and if they can keep up their momentum, actually have a shot at the playoffs.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Setting Goals and my training

Dear James, Daniel and Emily

Training

Today I ran the farthest distance I have ever run: 5.4 miles.  And my push up numbers continue to increase, along with the sit ups.  When I started out this morning I sure didn't feel I could really do the run, felt kind of weak legged, probably due to the change in my training schedule.  But I just kept moving and things fell into place.

Well today I ran into this post from a blog I read occasionally:

Achieving, without goals

Here is the part that really stuck out for me:

Goals are the same: we give them a lot of credit for our accomplishments, but they didn’t do the work. They might have given us a direction, but in the end, the work is done on a daily basis.
A lot of people that I run into who haven't seen me since I dropped all this weight ask me how I did it.  And to be honest, there was a lot of hard work, but very little of it was done through some sort of incremental goal setting.  I had some weight numbers in my mind, but there was never a sense of 'this week my goal is to lose 2 pounds, then next week 1 etc.'  Instead I approached it as a lifestyle change.  I changed what and how much I ate, and I changed how active I was.  And that become the proverbial snowball rolling downhill at some point. 

As I approach the end of my current training program on my Adidas MiCoach app for my phone I am wondering a little how I am going to maintain where I am at, and keep increasing my distance.  Because the 1 'goal' I do have is to run 10K's next year instead of 5K's (and maybe even run some longer races).  So I do have a goal in mind, but it is a pretty vague one. 

Given all this how do I keep myself going?  How do I get myself up and running at 5 AM 4 days a week?  How do I keep myself from eating huge meals every day?  It isn't goals at this point.  Nope, it is the result of all those lifestyle changes, and the link I posted earlier has a great breakdown of the sequence:

But remove goals from the picture and look at the gritty details of how work gets done and accomplishments happen:



You get excited about something. Sometimes that’s through setting goals, but it could be other ways: inspiration from someone else doing something, setting a challenge for yourself, joining a group doing something exciting, or just waking up and wanting to do something great. Or you put on ‘Hey Mama’ by Black Eyed Peas and start shaking your booty and want to get moving.

You take action.

Maybe you report your new thing to others — on your blog or Twitter or Facebook or an online forum, or just telling your friends.

You might make it a part of your life for a little while.

You take more action.

You tell people about how you’re doing.

Pretty soon you’ve done something amazing.

Yup, that about summed up what I did over the last 2 years.  Every once in a while it is nice to see someone capture something like this, which is a big part of your life, in better words than I have been able to use.  So, on this day, I am thankful for everything I have achieved, and the support I have received while doing it, and thankful that I was able to do it now, before I let life just carry me away into serious health threatening problems, because, as my father has said: 'a child should bury their parents, not the other way around' and if I have achieved nothing else in the last couple of years it is insuring that will be the case, barring an unfortunate accident.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Handling the cold runs, and a requiem for the #broncos season

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

Training

Today was the first real cold run.  15 degrees when I was getting dressed.  Tomorrow actually promises to be even colder apparently.  Since we agreed to wait until Xmas to purchase anything else for ourselves I am in a waiting mode for purchasing any more cold weather running gear.  So today I came up with a different combo: my normal pants, gloves, hat, plus dry fit style shirt, then a non hooded sweatshirt, then a nylon shell.  And I was comfortable despite the cold, in fact felt a chill a few times, not too much, but enough to keep me moving.  Which is really the ideal.  We'll get a real verdict tomorrow as it is a real long run in what promises to be real cold weather.  But I feel good about the long runs right now.

Football

Well the game last night certainly started right, but that was pretty much the highlight.  I think the bottom line is we are seeing the effect of 2 things: poor luck/poor drafts on the defensive side, and injuries to the one position we could least afford them.  The offense is good to great depending on the opponent and circumstances, that despite starting 2 rookies on the line.  So I have to figure that will only be better next year.  The problem is the defense.  2 of our best/most important defensive players have basically not played this season, and our secondary is a mix of really young and really old players, with nothing in between.  It just hasn't worked, not consistently, you get a mix of good plays and then breakdowns from rookie mistakes or aging veterans unable to keep pace. 

So this weekend I get to see in person my 2 favorite sports teams.  And I get to see one team that is up and coming, but being built from scratch.  And another team that has tried to stay relevant by mixing in a bunch of pieces that are not guaranteed to work. It should be fun, I'll make sure to take pictures and update Twitter/FB when I can.  And thanks again to Bill & Nancy for the tickets. 

Monday, November 22, 2010

#Warzone, #HarryPotter, painting, and Xmas shopping, a very full weekend.

Dear James, Daniel and Emily

Had a good weekend.  Started off well with a family movie night, the Saturday AM run, fun times with kids.  Sunday was mostly devoted to Xmas shopping for the kids.  Then home for some Warzone with James, and then plenty of painting.  The training change went well for the first weekend.  Minimal football, which combined with the big TV still being out of order forced me to really focus some time on painting and reading, which was a nice diversion.

Family

We had Brandon over for the night Friday night, which Daniel enjoyed.  Had a relaxing night of movies with the kids and after they went to bed.  Saturday morning I ran, then fed the kids and did some picking up before taking them down to the library.  We got a bunch of books (and more CD's for me).  Then had some quiet time before Kim got home and it was off to Harry Potter.

We all enjoyed the movie (although Daniel was his usual fidgety self).  Sunday was focused on Xmas shopping for the kids, both with them, and then after handing them off to Grandma.  After that was complete we came home and James and I finally tackled our Warzone game.  That was followed by some painting time, including giving James a chance to paint for the first time.  All in all it was a good weekend.

Training

The first weekend of the new training schedule went well.  The Saturday morning run went well, and my run this morning showed no ill effects from only having 1 day of rest.  I started the 200 sit up program Friday night, and started the second week of 100 push ups.  It is all going very well.  I am really looking forward to how this is all going to end up, because to be honest I don't really have a specific goal in mind, this is all just general fitness for me.  And the runs are the closest thing I have to a meditative time. 

Miniatures

I got in lots of painting time this weekend.  Finished 1 squad, and got 95% done on another one.  I am really getting back into the groove.  And yesterday James asked to paint, so I gave him an Empire archer to do.  Then gave him some basic pointers.  He really enjoyed it, and in fact this morning he was ready to paint some more.  I told him that maybe after school he could, or he could wait until I get home and paint after dinner.  I wanted him to ask to do it, rather than force him. 

We finished the game we started a couple of weeks ago, although James got frustrated and bored, and we did end before we could have.  I think he would have liked a simpler force to work with than what I put together, especially while he is still getting familiar with the rules.  So for the next game I will design a more conservative force for him, and then set some scenario objectives to make the game interesting.  It's  all a question of learning and development, and sometimes I have to force myself to remember he is only 9.

Friday, November 19, 2010

My evolving training plan(s), #Warzone, #HarryPotter (and that's just Saturday)

Dear James, Daniel and Emily
Training

In my continuing evolution of fitness I have made a change this week, along with adding 2 new fitness programs, and a plan for family fitness as well.

  • New training programs: 100 Pushups and 200 Situps.  At one time I was doing the Ab lounger before my morning runs, but time cut that out.  But I have determined that I want to be able to do both, but know that I can't do both in the same day for now.  So I have a plan to work these programs until I reach the point where I can actually do 100 pushups and 200 situps, then make those an every other day routine.
  • Changed my running plan, moving my Friday runs to Saturday mornings.  Espeically with the colder waether setting in it is harder for me to do anything active on the weekends.  So this is one way to get me to do something every day of the week, be it running or the above routines.  In addition Fridays are always hard to get motivated anyway, but by getting myself up on Saturdays and running I can greatly improve my attitude that day, which is never a problem with Fridays because it is the last day of the work week.
  • Starting after Thanksgiving we are going to set aside Thursday nights as a family Y night (at least until the weather improves to the point where we can go to parks instead).  This is the other reason for moving the Friday runs, I want to be able to really push myself when swimming and having fun with the kids, without worrying about wiping out my energy for the morning run. 
So that's the new plan, with a goal of being able to consistently clock 15-20 miles a week alternating with situps and pushups.  And I think that is eminently doable.

Family

Hope to resume the Warzone game with James tomorrow.  Then we are taking the boys to see Harry Potter in the afternoon on Saturday.  Sunday? no plans, and likely no big TV, and no Broncos game, so who knows? Maybe some other kind of fun and games.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

When it rained & poured, I got a refreshing reminder of what was important

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

On Monday we finally broke down and took one of the vans in for brake work.  That was not exactly a cheap expense, but had to be done, the light kept coming on, and the rattle we got braking at high speeds was getting worse.  So we sucked it up and took it in.

Last night Kim was watching TV and it just went dark, and would not come back on.  After trying a couple of different things we figured out that the lamp was shot.  And will have to either fix it, take it in for service, or replace it.  So that led to a stressful couple of hours while we contemplated what we were going to do.

While sitting in silence, contemplating all of this, I was browsing Twitter and came across this link:

A mother's Journey

And looking at the photos and captions really brought me back down to earth.  Reminding me of what was important.  And if we have to sit in silence and read books or paint or do puzzles for a couple of days that just isn't that big of a hardship in the long run.  In fact it was kind of nice to just sit and read with Kim for a couple of hours.

I was able to find out what was really wrong with the TV today and should have it up and running within a week.  So not a huge deal.  Again, perspective is really important sometimes. 

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Fully Integrated now

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

Lookout Facebook folks, I have finally figured out how to complete total integration of this blog, Twitter and Tumblr posts.  So when I create a post here, or in Tumblr the feed seamlessly goes to Twitter.  Then the integration of Twitter and Facebook places what I say in Facebook. 

In theory I could then skip the Tumblr all together now since my original setup there was for the combined link of Facebook and Twitter feeds, to save time on my phone.  But since I have unilaterally placed all of my political posts to Tumblr it has become a subscribed feed.  So I will keep that going on it's own. 

But I do get to save the time now, instead of writing a post here, then publishing, then going to bit.ly and coming up with another clever lead in, I can skip all of that.  Instead whatever I post here, will go directly to Twitter with the post as the tweet, and a link. 

Then all of my tweets go directly to Facebook as a status message.  With links back here if it is a link to this site, or a link back to Tumblr if it comes from there, etc. 

What does all this mean to you, the reader?  Basically nothing, although I might have to get more clever with the titles.  The biggest change is I might get more traffic from Facebook.  But that won't affect what I write here. 

(Sorry Dave & Dan for all of the testing messages, if you want to I can remove the direct messages to you if you want to just use the feeds, send me a direct message if that's the case.)

Lasst bit of tinkering today

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

I swear, I promise, well that's assuming this works...

(sorry to Dave & Dan, for the multiple e-mails)

Testing Feedburner

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,'

Theoretically this should now appear as a Twitter link.

Just a few notes

Dear James, Daniel and Emily

Training

Good week.  Hit a personal high 5 mile run yesterday. Still figuring out the cold weather gear, but waiting to buy the extra clothing for now.  Had an interesting experience today.  I was running along, and tripped, tried to stay up for a few steps, then eventually crashed, and it hurt.  But I got right back up and kept right on running.  Finished my 3 miles without any problems.  My hip is tightening up now, but otherwise it feels fine.  Which is another turning point for me, to have something like that happen and to just get right back up and keep running is a big deal.

Working on a new training deal.  100 Pushups, using a phone app to work my way up to being able to do 100 pushups at one shot.  Pushups have never been my best exercise, but since I have lost all this weight they are a little easier.  And I feel that the pushups are a worthwhile additional exercise to undertake.

Blog addition

So if you look to the right on the blog you will now see options to add my blog posts to Google Reader, and also my Tumblr feed to Google Reader as well.  I intend to add regular RSS feeds for both as well this week.  All of this is just an easier way to get the content of the blog, and in the case of Google reader limit the number of web sites you need to visit to get the content.  So, just an FYI for those interested in that option.


Family

In the continuing effort to increase the kids literacy and love of books I am trying to figure out some books for the kids for Christmas.  The problem with books is that I have grown so used to the library that my first instinct is to get a book for them from the library, not buy it.  So I am having to kind of carpet bomb then somewhat with different libary ones until we come across something that would be worth actually owning.  I don't mind buying them books, I just don't want to have a massive library of books that are either unread or only read once and forgotten. 

Monday, November 15, 2010

Monday morning recovery

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

Had a good weekend, lots of fun family time.  James and I got a new game of Warzone started, but did not finish.  Had a good time at Dillon's birthday party.  Did some Sunday shopping (always a trial), but then had some fun with the kids at Lazerquest.Came home to relax, watch the Broncos, and got caught up on TV shows.

Miniatures

Didn't paint this weekend, but James and I did play.  His focus left a little something to be desired, just need to point that out to him before we start the game again.  Plus he has an annoying tendency to not move units, even when they are doing nothing.  But we were having fun when we had to stop for timing.  Hopefully we can start up where we left off on another night. Or this weekend. Now I just have to get my paints out again this week. 

Family

It was a nice weekend for the family, pretty relaxing overall.  We had a good time at the birthday party, I got to sit and watch lots of college football, then we played some games.  The kids had a good time with their cousins.  Sunday we took the kids out for a trip to LaserQuest, for a couple of games of Lasertag.  which the boys enjoyed. 

I struck a little more while the Iron was hot with James and watched the 300.  Which was a little gory, and some scary parts for Daniel, but James really liked it.  Then on Saturday we had a long talk about the Spartans and general military history.  He is at the right age where I can enjoy teaching him all these things that I have soaked up through the years. 

Football

Watched far more football than I planned to over the weekend, but it was fun, and I took it in stride.  I was glad to see the Buffs rebound in the post-Hawkins era.  And it was good to see the Broncos return to winning.  In both cases I am not getting my hopes up for this to be a portent of things to come. 

Training

So my new gloves worked quite well this weekend in general, and much better for my run this morning.  My hands and the gloves were not soaking wet from sweat after my run.  So the next step will be some long sleeve shirts, and then a new shell jacket.  I don't know where this is all coming from, but as the saying goes 'no one ever regrets their workout, be it a morning run or whatever, they only regret not doing it' and that is a feeling I have become familiar with as I find it easier and easier to get up and run, and miss the workout the mornings I don't run.

Friday, November 12, 2010

Another week down, and is it really only 1.5 week until Thanksgiving?

Dear James, Daniel and Emily

Another full week down, except for the kids, who had yesterday off.  Good running this week, high for time and distance since I started this program, but not so much for eating.  Committing myself to a game of Warzone this weekend with James as there are no major projects or events to plan for that will take up my attention.  Not real focused on football though, kind of enjoyed that last weekend.  Also trying to keep the politics to Tumblr, so don't be afraid to click on those links on this page.

Family

Only major plan is a family birthday party, but that is at someone elses' house, and no major planning for us so should be restful for us.  The kids did well this week, including handling a day with Grandpa Pete (thanks again Dad, and should I say Grandpa survived the kids?).  No real problems with James pacing his homework for once, or doing their chores.  So the planning ahead and setting up that routine is paying off, even if staggering the bedtimes is a little intensive I think it works better. 

Training

Ran over 14 miles combined this week!  That's a high for me.  And also ran for over 2 hours combined, another high.  And by adding the stretching routine at night before I go to bed I think I have fought through and solved the problem of the knot in my calf that was refusing to go away a couple of weeks ago.  It's little stuff like that that make all the difference, especially at my age.  I am planning on adding a new routine next week, but won't go into details until I really get started with it and commit.

The changing diet is going well overall.  My dairy and meat intake has been cut dramatically.  And I actually did well after the first week of avoiding the Halloween candy.  My big problem has been getting the appetite back under control, I realize that even though I am eating healthier, I still don't have a license to pig out.

Miniatures

Didn't crack the paints at all this week, gotta get back to that.  First, because it is a fun diversion.  Second, it is a good thing to do in the evenings that focuses my attention.  I think part of that will come from getting an actual game in with James this weekend.  Life has just gotten away from me for the past month, but no excuses this weekend. 

Routine

First week went well, stuck to the menu pretty well.  Kids did their daily routines of homework and chores.  And we didn't even have to resort to the board for reinforcement.  But the initial stages of developing a routine are always like that.  The key is combating the elements of chaos that trickle in after that first stage that is hard.  So we have to take the time on Sunday to map out the next week, and then stick to it again.

Football

Even though the Broncos are playing again this week I am going to make a concerted effort to not plan my day around the games.  If we are home, and nothing is on tap, I will watch, but ideally it may only be a backdrop while we do other stuff.  Of course the weather being what it is it is much harder to achieve that, it's hard to get away from the TV when you are stuck at home while it is snowing and cold outside. 

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

They finally did it, the long era of pain is over.

Dear James, Daniel and Emily

Hawkins relieved of his duties as CU head coach

I was a staunch defender of Coach Hawk, I really thought he was the perfect match to Boulder and CU.  But after 5 years it has become clear that while his personality may have meshed well with Boulder, his talents and skills as a head coach were not up to snuff.  It's sad and troubling that it had to end this way.  I would have liked to have seen him succeed or if not succed at least go out with some style.  But that last loss was really the final straw.

Here's a couple of names I would like to see replace him:

Mike Leach, bring the Pirate to Boulder!  He may not be a typical head coach, but he took an also ran school in the highly competitive state of Texas and made it into a conference and even possible national champion contender. 

Gus Malzhan: His offensive wizardry might be the trick we will need to keep up in the new conference. 

Eric Bienemy: Bring Scooter back to Boulder!  I'm not 100% sure he is ready to be a head coach, but this would have real appeal to the alumni.

Bill McCartney: I would only want this as a bridge, like in combination with Bienemy or long shot Dave Logan as a coach in waiting. 

Monday, November 8, 2010

Positive weekend, settling into new routine

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

Kim had a good birthday party, it was a definite success.  We got some good things done around the house as far as setting up the new routine.  Emily got to go to her first friends birthday party solo, and had a good time.  And I only barely watched any football, a real change for me.  And I had a great start to the weeks training today.

Family

Kim had a good birthday all around.  We had a nice quiet night on Friday, pizza and a movie at home.  Saturday I got lots of things done with pictures, as part of Kim's present, but also got a little caught up in that, so maybe didn't get the house as ready, but it was fine. 

Kim's party was nice, thanks to all who helped out, and a special thanks to Phyllis & Alan for bringing the fine salad and spaghetti sauce.  There was lots of nice visiting time, followed by some fun playing Wii, and then several rounds of Stinkpot. 

So Emily was scheduled to go to the party on Saturday, but the party was postponed until Sunday.  So I took the time to get her hair cut and got some tips for dealing with her tangles (a daily fight due to morning grooming before school).  But on Sunday she was able to go, and after overcoming her initial clinging she relaxed and let us leave.  And when we picked her up it appeared that she had a great time.  So that was a nice new experience for her. 

Training

The weekend eating continues to be a fight, but that's not a surprise, until we get past all of the events that will be par for the course.  Had some good runs Friday, and especially today, today I topped my longest distance, as I cracked 4.5 miles, running at a running pace instead of just a slow jog.  So I think that if I had to I could do a 10K at a slow jog, provided the course wasn't too hilly.  Which is real progress, and has me feeling confident of reaching my eventual goal of running a 10K in a reasonable time by next spring.

Routine

So now that we are past all of the holidays and leave time we sat down to implement a regular schedule of homework, and chores for the kids.  And get back into the habit of regular weekly menu planning.  And part of this is a commitment on our part to return to bedtime reading to the kids.  As a creature of habit I am of course looking forward to this. 

Friday, November 5, 2010

Happy Birthday to the love of my life

Happy Birthday Kim!

Wishing my goofygirl, the best thing I ever did in my life, the most wonderful and joyous of birthdays.



Thursday, November 4, 2010

Catching up after a week of politics

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

Some points and observations that are unrelated to politics, since the election is over and I can reduce my interest there.

  • James has become very interested in tales of Spartans, particularly the story of the 300 Spartans.  So I am striking while the iron is hot.  Getting him some books on the subject, plus watching the 300 with him (I know it's not super accurate but it's a fun retelling, suitable for a 9 year old).  Plus, after watching the first Percy Jackson movie I am getting those books from the library, and showed him a copy of my old Edith Hamilton Mythology book, in keeping with the general theme of Ancient Greece and their myth stories.

  • My running went very well this week.  My eating, not so much.  My meals have been good, but the availability and lure of Halloween candy has been my downfall.  I have really noticed more though how the candy has the effect of wanting more and never satisfying.  So after the week is over I will have to get back to better discipline on that score.

  • Emily's first week at BV has gone well so far.  She has apparently done very well in class, and no accidents, which were my biggest concerns.  The morning drop offs have taken some adjustment, I can't just sign her in and run like with Daniel, she wants/needs me to stick around for a little longer.  But that will change with time I am sure.

  • Last family birthday this week, celebrating Kim's birthday Saturday night.  That will finally be the end of it, 4/5 of the family have birthdays within a months time, making October just really hectic, with every weekend another event.  But that comes to an end after this weekend, thank goodness. 

  • No Rams or Broncos this weekend, so Sunday should be a very relaxing day, with no real reason to be glued to the TV.  May catch up on some household projects, may also play some games with James.  Then again Kim may decide on doing something more active, in which case we'll do that. 

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Now the same pundits who claimed 2008 wasn't a mandate will say 2010 is.

And they won't be right this time either. This election was the result of political ADD and 9 - 10 % unemployment. The 24 hour news cycle makes people expect overnight change. But the reality is no matter what branch of economics you espouse the invisible hand moves at it's own pace.

The Republicans need to remember these points.  They were elected by an incredibly impatient electorate that expects instant results, even when those results aren't possible.  So, if a split Congress and Democratic President are incapable of making unemployment disappear or at least go down appreciably in the next 2 years that same electorate is going to be angry again.  And with a popular President having someone to point the finger at I wouldn't want to be a Republican who was elected this year with promises to change things.

Having said all that, I am done with this election.  I hope things get better, I really do, but I doubt that the above scenario will having any more success at getting the invisible hand to hurry up.


"Society is like a stew, if you don't stir it up all the scum rises to the top." Edward Abbey
Mike Ruch

Monday, November 1, 2010

It's on November! We are ready for you!

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

Finished October on a high note.  The kids got to have a good Halloween weekend.  My training continues to develop, in spite of weather changes, and fought off a tough eating weekend.  Handled another disappointing football weekend, still striving to get my head around these bad games.  Ready for a new routine to kick in.

Family

The boys had a 4 day weekend, and I had a 3 day one, and of course poor Kim had to work every day, no justice in this world sometimes.  The boys got to enjoy a day with Grandpa, and then days with Dad, including a trip to soccer.  It was a good change and break for them.  Emily wound up her time at Old Town, thanks to all the wonderful folks there, it was an excellent transition for her. 

The kids got lots of trick or treating chances: Manitou on Friday, Old Colorado City and then a neighborhood trip on Sunday.  Much fun was had, lots of fun costumes to see.  And now we have 3 big bags of candy sitting around the house to tempt us (must resist). 

Training

I am enjoying the change up with the neighborhood runs, there is a straightforward roughly 2 mile loop I can run, and then break it up into small chunks.  Plus that gives me the enhancement of running up and down some hills, not a rough trail run, but some hills, which is important long term for any races I want to run next year.  I can't get too used to the flat track.  My plan is to use the track on the interval days, and then run the neighborhood on long stretch run days.

Eating wise I was okay over the 3 day weekend, although still over indulged in the evenings.  As always that's the toughest time for me.  But the transition to a new diet continues.

My next added routine is stretching, I stretch before and after my runs, but I think I need to add a routine before bed as well.  Because as I ramp up the runs I am starting to feel like one of my calves just never relaxes.  So hopefully a little more stretching will help, and in general help get the blood flowing before bed. 

Football

I would never have thought that at this point that the 1 bright point amongst my teams would be the Rams.  I had more hopes and expectations for the Buffs, Rebels and Broncos than the Rams.  That is one of the reasons why I like football, it's still the best reality TV out there, with a lot of unscripted surprises every week and season.  I just need to get my head straight when watching the Broncos and acclimate myself to the idea that they are just not a good team now.

Routine

With Emily starting school today, and the coming end of the month of birthdays life should start to settle into more of a routine.  And I am already making plans for just that with the kids.  Setting up a daily routine of expected chores and home work.  Little things, like taking the dog for a walk, feeding the dog, doing home work, picking up dirty clothes etc.  And add a section for exercise routines for me and Kim.  I am a big fan of routine, and I think it helps the kids to have some of that as a a basis for their lives. We have been looking at a big magnetic white board to use as a tracker for such things.  Just so there is some level of expectations. 

Because as James gets older and starts testing his limits it is important that we have something we can point to and say 'Have you done X today? If not you cannot have a friend over, play this game etc.'  I know that yesterday when it was time it was very easy to tell James: 'You need to do your math home work, walk the dog, and pick up your room, you have 2 hours'.  He basically knows how to manage himself, you just have to lay out his responsibilities.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Weekend Plans

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

Last of my planned 3 day weekend on tap, it has been nice to have 5 short weeks in a row, even if I had to use up paid time to do it.  But I am actually looking forward to returning to the 5 day week routine again on some level.  I'm not saying I wouldn't do it again, and might if I have to do the same thing next year.  Anyway, not a lot on tap for this weekend.  Maybe a short family gathering on Saturday, then of course Halloween, but not a lot of work is involved there, just time.  Hoping to get in some Warzone time with James though.  And looking forward to a big run tomorrow.

Family

Again, nothing really planned as far as family plans.  My brother is coming to town on Saturday so there might be an informal gathering for him, but nothing major planned.  Halloween will be a 2 part process on Sunday, first going to Old Colorado City for the afternoon trick or treating, then an evening visit to some other neighborhood for the kids to do some house to house trick or treating.  But otherwise I hope to focus on relaxing and getting in some hobby time the rest of the weekend.

Training

Tomorrow my training schedule calls for my longest run at speed, which should be a challenge, but I am up for it, and actually looking forward to it.  In glancing at my training schedule the effort is definitely ramping up, but I guess it only seems harder in writing, in comparison to what I am already doing it is only a small step.

The diet transition continues.  It is not as easy as I hoped, because the rest of the family is not on the same page so it is harder to find alternatives.  But I have done well so far.  And it does seem to make a real difference, I have dropped weight, and feel better, not as many digestive issues or feeling really blah after a heavy meal of meat and fat. 

Miniatures

First, I hope to successfully carve out the time for a game this weekend with James.  I should be able to as there is so little planned, so it should be relatively easy to set things up and if necessary play later, after the game is set up. 

Second, I thought I might prep some figures for James and set him loose with some paints one evening.  Just to give him a taste, and a chance to feel what I feel from painting.  He really loves to draw his little war scenes, and I figure this would be a natural progression, and also important for him to appreciate the work that goes into painting, before he ever gets to go to the store for a game. 

Football

Oh yeah, the season is still going on right?  I figure we will focus some time on the Broncos game Sunday before heading out to trick or treat, but it will be more of a side thing, not the focus of the weekend or day.  It just feels so much healthier approaching it this way. 

When did I get so Extreme?

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

The other day, during a discussion with one of my more conservative friends, he made the statement:

"When did wanting a fiscally responsible, balanced budget get considered extreme politics?"

I replied that the basics of that statement weren't extreme.  But if you think that the only way to get to that point is to cut Social Security & Medicare without performing some real cuts in the Defense budget, that is extreme. 

But that got me to thinking, I do not consider myself that extreme of a person, and while I have taken a few extreme political positions in my life mostly those were tempered somewhat by other positions.  So the thought process then took me another direction:

"When did supporting Unions, a living wage, a social safety net, and government regulation of Industry to prevent damaging consequences become an extreme position?"

Because economically that's really all I am talking about.  I am not advocating industry nationalization, or complete takeover of certain companies or sectors.  I don't think it's extreme to want a good education for my children, an expectation of good, affordably priced health care, the idea that all things being equal my children can hope to live better than I do economically.  And yet that has somehow become considered the extreme.

And that about sums up the problem with our national political discourse these days.  Positions that used to be considered normal are now radical.  What was radical is now normal.  And I think that until that reverses there will be more hard times politically.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Happy Birthday Emily!

Dear James, Daniel and Emily


Happy Birthday Little Princess Emily!
Have a super day today, you are one of the lights of my life, in turns enjoyable, and infuriating, but you are no longer Baby Em, you are now Princess Em!

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Running out of outrage juice, while simultanesously wondering how to get the blind to see

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

I can't say I didn't see or at feel this coming on some level.  This electoral year has grown so outrageous and out of control, that I have just about run out of gas to fuel the outrage machine.  It has reached the point that pointing out another case of G.O.P./Tea Party hypocrisy/craziness feels like one of my favorite lines from Apocalypse Now:

"Accusing someone here of murder is like passing out speeding tickets at the Indianapolis 500"

Now it has reached the point of physical violence between groups of supporters.  And some candidates seemingly advocating open insurrection if their party doesn't win the election.  Are we this close to turning into Weimar Germany? 

And the point that I just cannot understand is this: do these Tea Party Neo Cons not see how they are being manipulated by the very same corporate interests that nearly wiped out our economy for their own greed and gain?  The next time I see a commercial paid for by big money corporate interests accusing a Democrat of supporting the bail outs I may just throw a shoe through my TV.  This all stems from the combined forces of the Great Divergence coupled with the Citizens United decision.  That decision made it easy for those with money to pay to keep control of our government.  These corporations are flat out of control, and the more news we see and uncover the more obvious it is that the real cause of the Recession was not some shadow government program forcing the banks to loan to poor people, it was banks doing everything in their power to make money, even if it turns out they fundamentally broke the law to do it.

This is what the election campaigns on the part of many of these Tea Party activists boil down to:

1. Wall Street destroyed the economy, maybe causing me to lose my job in the process, so I am mad as hell.
2. The government bailed out Wall Street, so these Fat Cats did not lose their shirts or pay the price for their greed, this makes me mad at the government
3. The Democrats took control of Congress and the Presidency right after the bail out, and failed to restore the economy and my job, so I'm mad at them
4. I want to toss the bums out of control, but I have no money to pay for the election. 
5. Wall Street wants to be sure they won't pay the price for their mistakes, and can continue to run roughshod over  the economy so long as they can make a huge profit, and those Democrats are calling Wall Street bad names and trying enact the bare minimum regulations that might keep all of this from happening.
6. Wall Street tells the angry people they will pay for lots of election campaigns pointing the finger at the Democrats as being responsible for this mess. 
7. Angry people take the money because they are mad, and human nature says you have to do something when things are bad, like a drowning person thrashing around in a pool of water. 
8. Wall Street has the very likely chance of getting loads of people elected who will do their bidding because who paid for that election?  And the first thing they will ask of these elected officials?  Get rid of or weaken all those laws that will keep them from making money hand over foot using barely legal schemes again. 
9. The economy continues to flail and slow, and the angry people get angrier.  And Wall Street sits back and smiles, knowing they have bought at least 2 more years of weak or lax regulation, with no penalties for failure.

That last part is supposition and theory on my part.  If you know your history you know that the New Deal essentially saved capitalsim in this country, there was every reason, in the face of the Depression, to go whole hog Socialist, like many European countries.  Well if the big corporations, and the truly wealthy don't see that, and understand that failing to let the Democrats accomplish the same thing this go around is in their best interst they could very well suffer in the long run.  Because if the Republicans do gain control of the House, and continue to abuse their ability to stalemate the government for 2 years, and the economy fails to rebound, all of those angry people who voted for the Tea Party this go around?  They could very well turn their anger on the real culprits next time, and it could be real ugly.

Monday, October 25, 2010

Jumping right into it this morning

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

Coming to a screeching halt by going to work, that's an odd feeling.  What a busy busy, go go weekend!  Friday was relaxed, nothing really going on, until the moment I picked up the kids, after that the rest of the weekend was pretty much non stop.  Multiple parties of all stripes and colors.  Cleaning, preparing, decorating, barely a moment to sit and relax.  But it was a good weekend despite all that, and despite a horrendous showing from my football teams.

Family

Friday morning and early afternoon I got some time to myself to relax, which was a good things because after that it was busy time.  Friday evening was Daniel's soccer team party at the Y, then on to the BV school Harvest festival.  Staying there a little later so Kim could help with the clean up.  But the 2 events were fun, the kids had a good time, as can be seen in some of the pictures I uploaded.

Saturday the original plan was to spend the day at home, maybe work on kids costumes, and clean.  But we got an invite to a pumpkin carving party in the afternoon, which meant all of the cleaning had to be crammed into the morning, by me.  Which was fine, I don't mind doing my part, but it wiped out any chance at relaxing, or getting in a game of Warzone with James.  But the party was worth it, it was nice to be invited by the Alvarez clan, and was fun to socialize with a different group of adults. 

Sunday morning was more cleaning and then cooking and general preparation for the big birthday party.  But that was all worth it, as Emily had a really good time at her party.  Thanks to everyone who came and made it a special event for her.  From there is was quick clean up and across the street for the rest of the afternoon for a neighborhood barbecue.  Which was nice, the kids had a great time running around, and we again got the chance to relax with some other adults.  We got home and I just collapsed the rest of the night in exhaustion.

Training

I got in some good time on the stationary bike on Friday, but one thing I am looking forward to when these 4 day weeks end is returning to a normal Friday morning running routine.  This morning I was all prepared for a cold run, with new sweats and everything, only to have it be warm, but terribly windy.  So windy I almost stumbled a couple of times. 

My new dietary change was okay over the weekend, I wasn't quite as strict as I wanted to be, all of those parties etc made it hard to adhere to any kind of special diet.  But I was good overall, felt much better than previous weekends where I pigged out on heavy fatty meals packed with protein and meat.  One thing I do need to do is develop a habit of always having some water around to drink.  Because that can help curb the twin problems of feeling full and just wanting something to do with my hands.

Football

What a terrible weekend.  On the up side I am just not feeling the emotional roller coaster effect I would have in years past.  Which has to be a new record for me, to be this philosophical this early in the season.  Of course it helped having lots of things to distract me, but still I would prefer to think I am slowly turning the corner to becoming a better fan, without the emotional trappings and frustrations that come with being a fanatic.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

The buying of our country

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

It just seems obvious to me that when you really look at this election, paying close attention to the parts of the many many many nasty attack ads out there, that there is an effort on the part of some people with really big pockets to buy this election.  I would say that it's about a 3-1 ratio of attack ads attacking Democratic candidates here in my home of Colorado.  And I would say about 2 in 3 of those ads are not paid for by the Republican party or the Republican candidates.  Nope ,they are paid for by PAC's whose funding is alarmingly invisible.  And this is really alarming, and should be alarming no matter what side of the aisle you are on.

If we truly believe we live in a Democracy, where the power resides in the hands of the people, this is a bad thing.  Because, while it is still up to us to vote, and those votes do count, if the voters only ever hear one side of the story, they cannot make good decisions.  I am as guilty as anyone of unconsciously filtering my news sources, getting much of my news from some admittedly liberal sources.  But when I come across a story I still research it, or at least take the slant of the reporter into account most of the time.  But what kind of electorate would we have if all of the news, and political campaign information only came from 1 side?

That's the real issue here.  A great majority of voters are not willing to really dig on most issues.  They will listen to the barrage of ads and eventually the message sinks in.  If all of the campaign ads, or 75% of them come from the same side people will not get the whole story without getting off the couch and researching the issues.  As an example, there are 3 ballot issues here in Colorado, 60, 61, 102, that have been labeled 'the bad 3'.  I have only seen ads opposing them.  Admittedly I will still oppose them, but if I only ever see an ad that opposes them what is the likelihood I would vote for them? 

Once Citizens United opened the floodgates to Corporate spending this is the result.  Big money can buy up the air waves, flooding them with ads in favor of the candidates or issues they support, and ads attacking those they don't support.  And don't think that the lesson of this fall is falling on deaf ears on the side of the Democrats.  Yes, I think it is good, and pure, and presents the right image for the DNC and it's candidates to not court the big money corporate spenders this year.  But that could change in 2012.  If you're a conservative do you really look forward to an avalanche of Pro-Obama, anti-Republican ads paid for by the wealthy liberal elites and their corporate allies?  Because that is exactly the logical chain of events.

Their are some who say this is great, it's free speech, it's the Free Market.  But it is the exact opposite, it's paid for speech, and the last I checked we lived in a Democracy, not a Corporate Oligarchy where we were governed by candidates chosen by and supported by the biggest spenders. 

What can we do about it? One, look at who is paying for the ads you see, research those organizations to see where their money is coming from.  Two, demand that there be laws on the books that force any and all donations be transparent and visible so you can know who is truly funding these ads.  Finally, hope and pray that a couple of elections like this will eventually force a reversal of Citizens United and we can return to being a country where our representatives are truly of and by the people, not some rich business person who can get the bigger corporate backers.

Monday, October 18, 2010

First real test of the phasing out passed, plus lots of fun times

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

I passed the first weekend of my phasing out of meat and dairy with good results.  This despite some fun times with the boys, last soccer games of the fall, James birthday party.  It was a full 3 day weekend that was for sure.  I have 2 more of these 4 day weeks, and I think I have taken more than full advantage of them so far, but it will not be too painful to return to the normal work week. 

Family

The boys and I had a good day Friday.  I took them up to Denver to the mall where the Lego store was.  They enjoyed the shopping (although there was some endurance towards the end, when I was still browsing and they were ready to leave).  And we had some decent drives without any major arguing or bored fighting.

Saturday we wound up the soccer season.  Emily played the most of any game this season, she might play again in the spring, we'll see.  Daniel endured another game, no major issues, although still no signs of interest in doing anything other than just running around aimlessly.  I think that is one reason he likes baseball, there is no chance of real physical contact, he can just hang out until called upon to hit or pick up the ball.  James team tied again, leaving them with another undefeated season.  Which quite likely might be a bit of a swan song for this group as many of them will be forced into other options due to age.

Sunday we had James birthday party for his friends.  It was a good time, playing Laser Tag.  Everyone had a good time, including the parents who participated.  I think this separation of family and friends really works for James.  And Kim had a good time making yet another elaborate cake. 

Training

Friday I slept in and then tried to run in the afternoon, after the trip to Denver, and my body just wasn't willing to keep up the pace.  I am just so used to running in the mornings.  But that's OK.  Today was particularly tough, with intervals, but I pushed my way through it. 

My plan to phase in the new eating habits is to start for now with limiting myself to 1 meat and 1 dairy portion per day for the first couple of weeks.  And I was able to do that over the weekend, despite some difficulties Sunday night with my usual bored hunger.  I am less focused on the processed food part of the diet for now, although I am trying to keep the sugars under control as usual. 

Kim & I talked about the diet, and she has accepted what I am trying to do, and agreed to start phasing it in for the family meals to some extent.  Although she hasn't read the book, and so doesn't fully buy the argument that she doesn't have to have as much calcium, and that the kids don't need as much fat, but I'll take the effort for now.  Eventually she will sit down and read the book and come around to the ideas behind it.

Football

1 for 3, with the 1 win being the least likely going into the weekend.  I'll take it.  I did a much better job of restricting my viewing to just the Bronco game, and parts of the Sunday night NFL game, which really is my goal for the long term. 

Mad Men

That was one of the most forgettable, anti-climactic season finales one can imagine.  I guess I hold the show to a higher standard.  I was just disappointed with the season overall, it was pretty uneven, and the finale was an example of that.  I can only hope that something better happens next year.

Miniatures

Finally got down to business and finished my Cybertronic painting.  Now all I have to do is seal all of them and I can move on to the next army.  It has been a lot of fun working on these again, even as I learned things like my vision is changing.  I didn't get in a game with James, but future weekends that should be easier with our getting our Saturday mornings back. 

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Contemplating a major change in lifestyle

Dear James, Daniel and Emily,

So here I am, 44 years old, roughly 180 lbs (give or take depending on my eating and exercise), with no major bad habits like drinking or smoking, and my main health measurables actually pretty good.  I run 3 miles at a time 4 days a week.  That's all to the good, shows how much I have done for myself over the last couple of years.  Contrast that with this post:

Well couldn't find the post so I'll just recap, a few years back I wrote up a long post detailing all of my medical issues, starting with my head down to my toes.  If I could find that post I could really show how far I have progressed since that time.  It's great, I feel good physically pretty much all of the time.

But, the question remains how do I keep this going?  It's one thing to keep you calories restricted for a period of time, and really push that and the exercise.  But you really can't keep that up forever, and sooner or later, especially with bad eating habits, things will revert.  So I have been thinking about nutrition more and more.

Which brings me to what I have been doing this week, but first some background.  A couple of years back I was meeting with some fellow CSS alum's and one of them mentioned how one of his classmates was apparently this big nutrition guru, and had in fact written a couple of books on the subject.  I filed that away in my mind, but didn't really think on it.  Well this same person has written a new book:
















And after reading a little bit about this book I thought I would try and get his first book from the library.  That took some work, but I got it last week, and finally cracked it open on Tuesday.  And I have been reading it voraciously ever since, it is an excellent book.  And I hope to have my own copy soon.  There's a lot to cover in the first book: Whole Health: The Guide to Wellness of Mind and Body but the first part is what has really caught my attention.  It really focuses on nutrition and breaks down what is and is not really good to eat and why.  Having grown up with a Vegan father, but being a typical American male I had never given much thought to the idea of not eating meat, that thought was just never a possibility. 

Well for the first time, after having general nutrition on my mind, and having read this book, I am pondering a radical change to my diet.  I don't know if I want or can go full vegan, or even vegetarian.  But I am planning on making changes that result in a massive reduction of meat and dairy in my diet.  I have already started tapering off, but am planning on making a more serious effort of doing so in the coming weeks. 

Again, this is less because the Dr. said I have to, in fact right now the Dr. is pretty happy with where I am physically.  This is more because I have to think long term, and the reality is that the long term merits this change, both to keep the weight off, and a general improved health outlook.  Because even 1 small hamburger and small fries is still bad for me.  And it is way to easy to fall back into the habit of eating like that if I allow myself that small indulgence. 

It's not going to be easy to make this change, and I plan to make it a gradual change.  In fact once I get my own copy of the book I will try to get Kim to read it and get her to agree to make this a dietary change for the whole family.  Partly to make us all healthier, and partly because it will be that much easier for us to make the change if all of our meals are the same.  Who knows, maybe my picky eaters, Daniel & Emily, will eat better if we change up what we fix for them?