The Waiting continues

Dear James, Daniel and Emily

So Day 5 now, fourth day with no prospects of leaving the house. The kids and I are slowly starting to drive each other nuts. The thing is I can't do much for Connie and the family right now. I don't want to take the kids to the Hospital, and since we are in a waiting vigil there's nothing more to do. And I know that Tammy wants to be there, both for herself and for Connie. And Tammy's kids are even less suitable for the hospital than ours. So I have to make myself available as baby sitter for them. Which is driving me and the boys even more nuts, because at this point they are pretty tired of the cousins. But, with no end in sight there isn't much choice.

The update as of last night was looking worse. Manuel was not responsive yesterday, and his functions appeared to be degenerating. Connie told Kim that his shoulders are starting to acquire the hunched in look that Grandma and Randy had at the end, for whatever that's worth. Again, we still don't have anything definitive, and the prognosis can change at any time.

Kim pointed out last night how this makes poor Connie's holidays even worse. Not just this year either. The thing is Manny's birthday falls on Christmas, so every Christmas will remind us of him. Plus every Thanksgiving will have his shadow over it. And her Mother passed on Mothers Day last year, so that is a double whammy. It's just a real bad streak for her, and I feel so sorry and wish there was something more I could do. I don't know if the posters will get out in time to raise the funds that she will need to pay for things. It's just... yuck, not much fun to think about. But this is one of the reasons I have this blog, writing does help a lot, even if no one really reads what I write.